20061009
earning back my wasted life
ah,how slowly the days go by now.im just drifting dreamily through each hour.minutes feel like hours,hours feel like days.promos are over.gawsh.tell me anything that would make me happier than that.okay maybe there is something that's better than that and i bet people like zwing,chook,sam and meng can tell you what it is but HAHA.my big mouth is shut.
i havent blogged in ages.ages.AGES.im such a wasted writer.but now im hitting the storybooks and reading those trashy teenage novels again that inspire me to never write like that, at very very most.i need to find another good book,like geisha/pride&prejudice to indulge my exquisite acquired tastes in books (what the hell.HAHA).
so far iv read rachel's,mel's,huishuang's,and willis' blog.so crappy la! as in,cracks me up to read about their own little escapades.hilarious.we should all compile a book together about the days of our a14 lives, revealed.i actually really liked huishuang's blog! no idea,but it's got some pristine quality to it.and willis' blog was absolutely hilarious.especially the part about steph (girl 1) and me (girl 2).at first it was making me totally laugh out loud (at him,more than at us) but when it got to the part about how some girls but NOT girl 1 or 2 were getting prettier in vj, it became a very 'what the hell' moment.wahlao willis you watch out.one day il flame your name on cosiety.
(((:
i don't know what im feeling now besides winsome.everybody else seems preoccupied with their fantastic wild lives,but im more or less just sitting around watching tv and enjoying the good lazy life, quite unexpectedly.perhaps im just too lazy to get out of the house.the balcony aircon is perpetually switched on,anyway.
im stranded between dimensions of life.studying and slacking.im doing neither,yet im doing something.i don't feel serious,but im struggling to gain control.the flow of life seems to have caught against one large jagged rock or something.the end of promos kinda spelt excessive and potentially harmful leisure.as seaborg says (cross-ref to GP Compre text).
oh yes,and im also completely pissed off at my mother right now,whom i graciously tried doing stuff like cleaning up the kitchen,ironing everybody's clothes,and marking scripts meticulously into the night for.today she's decided to stop being sick and iv been getting nothing but blasting for the mess iv apparently created.before i left for my haircut,session 1.after i came back and totally oblivious to previous displeasure (on MY part),session 2.definitely another 'what the hell' moment there.like,what the hell!i was trying to be nice,really.and this is all i get.condemnation.i repeat,what the hell! an angry person is a dangerous person.mummy,im angry at you.sorry.but im really angry and disappointed in your behaviour.
God forgive me.
on a lighter note,last night racho was showing my some deviantart stuff,this time of this person called silentbride.chook showed me some other really great photographers before too.but silentbride beats them flat.i completely LOVE her photog art.beautiful pieces so carefully thought over and conducted into life on film.gorgeous and hideous, gothic and angellic all rolled together.ah,made me feel extremely ashamed of my own ability.been fiddling with photoshop a lot and trying out lots of color balance alterations,working with different color ranges,playing with curves.but no way is my art good enough for deviantart viewers.man.racho's good though.loads of potential there.ah yes,and chook kk's photographs also la.all the deviantart ppl.
i need to call steph soon and tell her about willis' blog entry but her phone is dead.meanwhile,i shall just go back to reading my trashy teenage novels and binge on the little fantasies and fallacies of the old wise and very evil writers who convince teenagers life is what it is in those ridiculous stories of theirs.oh please,not everybody is bronzed, fit and summersoaked gorgeous like their poshy characters.
but who cares,i could be.((:HAH. ¶ 5:25 PM
i havent blogged in ages.ages.AGES.im such a wasted writer.but now im hitting the storybooks and reading those trashy teenage novels again that inspire me to never write like that, at very very most.i need to find another good book,like geisha/pride&prejudice to indulge my exquisite acquired tastes in books (what the hell.HAHA).
so far iv read rachel's,mel's,huishuang's,and willis' blog.so crappy la! as in,cracks me up to read about their own little escapades.hilarious.we should all compile a book together about the days of our a14 lives, revealed.i actually really liked huishuang's blog! no idea,but it's got some pristine quality to it.and willis' blog was absolutely hilarious.especially the part about steph (girl 1) and me (girl 2).at first it was making me totally laugh out loud (at him,more than at us) but when it got to the part about how some girls but NOT girl 1 or 2 were getting prettier in vj, it became a very 'what the hell' moment.wahlao willis you watch out.one day il flame your name on cosiety.
(((:
i don't know what im feeling now besides winsome.everybody else seems preoccupied with their fantastic wild lives,but im more or less just sitting around watching tv and enjoying the good lazy life, quite unexpectedly.perhaps im just too lazy to get out of the house.the balcony aircon is perpetually switched on,anyway.
im stranded between dimensions of life.studying and slacking.im doing neither,yet im doing something.i don't feel serious,but im struggling to gain control.the flow of life seems to have caught against one large jagged rock or something.the end of promos kinda spelt excessive and potentially harmful leisure.as seaborg says (cross-ref to GP Compre text).
oh yes,and im also completely pissed off at my mother right now,whom i graciously tried doing stuff like cleaning up the kitchen,ironing everybody's clothes,and marking scripts meticulously into the night for.today she's decided to stop being sick and iv been getting nothing but blasting for the mess iv apparently created.before i left for my haircut,session 1.after i came back and totally oblivious to previous displeasure (on MY part),session 2.definitely another 'what the hell' moment there.like,what the hell!i was trying to be nice,really.and this is all i get.condemnation.i repeat,what the hell! an angry person is a dangerous person.mummy,im angry at you.sorry.but im really angry and disappointed in your behaviour.
God forgive me.
on a lighter note,last night racho was showing my some deviantart stuff,this time of this person called silentbride.chook showed me some other really great photographers before too.but silentbride beats them flat.i completely LOVE her photog art.beautiful pieces so carefully thought over and conducted into life on film.gorgeous and hideous, gothic and angellic all rolled together.ah,made me feel extremely ashamed of my own ability.been fiddling with photoshop a lot and trying out lots of color balance alterations,working with different color ranges,playing with curves.but no way is my art good enough for deviantart viewers.man.racho's good though.loads of potential there.ah yes,and chook kk's photographs also la.all the deviantart ppl.
i need to call steph soon and tell her about willis' blog entry but her phone is dead.meanwhile,i shall just go back to reading my trashy teenage novels and binge on the little fantasies and fallacies of the old wise and very evil writers who convince teenagers life is what it is in those ridiculous stories of theirs.oh please,not everybody is bronzed, fit and summersoaked gorgeous like their poshy characters.
but who cares,i could be.((:HAH. ¶ 5:25 PM
