i don't care what the world throws at me now first of all,something made me decide to read the letter i wrote to God this morning before i started blogging.and i have just discovered the coolest thing ever.

"God! man. why's so many important people not coming tonight? i really wanted to spend my birthday with them Lord.. why are so many unable to come? is there a reason. i really really don't know what to do! ok, i do hope at least 10 ppl can come. but could you PLEASE grant me a miracle and make more of my VIPs come? i don't know how or what to do.. meng, robyn, cheryl, rowe, kahleng... please send them my way.. and at the very least God, make tonight really special for me.. that everything will work out right. i wanna place the event into your hands God. i had a startling revelation yesterday you know, about placing ourselves in another person's hands. that we do that not just because we have no choice, but sometimes because we have no other method of doing things that person's way. the only way we can do everything with the person and do it his way is by placing ourselves in his hands. there is a choice made. a choice when there's no other choice. and that's exactly how i want to place myself in YOUR HANDS LORD. there's nothing more i can do, no other way.. please help all things work out for the good of YOUR PURPOSE LORD. you send my guests to me tonight.. i commit all my plans to you. oh and please hold any rain tonight. give me a beautiful night please God. thank you Jesus. <3 Jonk 300406"

i mean considering what happened JUST tonight is the most amazing thing ever ever ever to happen to me.

im too lazy to blog much about it tho.kay.errr but i so so so HAVE TO.

it starts with me planning my own birthday party for tonight because basically no one seemed to be giving a damn about it so i did want to celebrate it somehow.so i planned this stargazing thing for tonight,just sit arnd the playground with a few friends and talk or sth.that's about it,and i kinda went arnd getting stuff with trinette yesterday.

so suddenly my plans go very haywire and a lot of ppl like cannot come.and all i cld do was wail to God about what i was going to do if everything totally screwed up.very unhappy.and rather sad that my most impt person rachel ho was not doing anyth abt my bday either.she was like SO uninterested and SO heck care abt my own plans.i was so damn discouraged la.so i kept praying and praying that it wun rain,that il have the ppl most impt to me there somehow..even meng,which i knew was not possible cos he said he had to study and yeahhhhhhhhh

YEAHHHHH so i believed all their nonsense.

all i rmb of the blur of events that followed was...i was pissed at rach,discouraged abt the stupid party,and trinette shows up at my house at 7 to 'help' me.ah.and to think SHE KNEW ALL ALONG.i was there moaning about how i din think anyone wld come..and was rather sad..she's such a faker la.stef said she was at jo's house and was gona come over to the playground alr with jo..and sucker called to say she was lost at the mrt...so i had to go to the playground to meet stef and trinette to find sucker...well so i met stef, but no jo..because jo was caught up at home.. (HAH I KNOW WHY NOW).and i ate dinner by myself in the park while waiting for stef.so sad right.haha.

then aft that sucker calls and says they're alr back at my house..marilyn's there..and then zwing calls and says she'll be at the mrt..so i rush to meet zwing..meet liao along the way going to my house..then shan calls and says shes also at the mrt...so i send zwing to go find her while i talk to liao.then i figure shan is taking too long to show..so i cycle down the mrt and find her across the road,but no zwing.shan rushes to go find her..and after a good 15 plus minutes i panic like mad that zwing has been kidnapped.images of Missing kept flashing in my mind.esp the part where the commentary goes..on April 30th 2006...Pang Sing Ying was going to a birthday party....that was the last Joanne ever saw of her again.

gosh.yeah but we found her soon after THANK GOD.prayed so hard she wasn kidnapped.cos then it wld be my fault for making her go find shan by herself.

at this time stef and sucker keep calling me cos iv been gone for a long time.nv occured to me why they did cept that cos they were getting impatient.so i wanted to at first send shan to the playground..then sucker keeps calling to say my mum says COME HOME NOW to get stuff..so shan says she'll walk to the playground herself.and that she knew how to..so i left with zwing for home (NOW I KNOW WHY).when we get home,all the stuffs packed.liao..sucker..marilyn..trinette.then amanda.we all carry stuff to the playground..when i give zwing a ride so she wun haf to walk.so im feeling quite alrite..quite happy some ppl are here.all i was expecting was stef,jo,sucker,liao,amanda,trin,zwing and me...cos rachel said she wld be late, which made me freak and rather pissed.hahaha.

so i get to the playground..but before i do i see stef and jolene parked on a park bench instead of where i left stef..which was the slides.then stef says she left some stuff in the pavillion so let's turn the other way and go there first..so im like,er.okay...but i din wanna cos it was the long way arnd to the playground.until stef starts yelling ouch cos she apparently fell down at ECP so i turned in that direction and started following her to see if she was okay.then i see this walkway of candles on the path she's taking..and it was rather sweet but i was ..er,why are all the candles i provided stuck in the same spot and no the playground?? then i push my bike thru the line of candles lining each side of the path and there's this 'JONK' word formed with candles at the end of it.stef was like,oh we did it for u (stef jo and shan...??) and so i was rather touched and said yeah it's really nice!

all of a sudden i think there was this yell,and i turn to where it came from which was the bushes on the far right of the small field next to the path..and i see this huge stream of people spewing out from behind the bushes..and ur mind is spinning so fast in the wrong direction it's impossible to think about what's going on..and there's this little corner of brain that screams UR FRIENDS! and im like WHO? and i see brandon frolicking towards me,meng teetering arnd, CARON grinning like mad (SHE FAKED THAT SHE WLDN COME) and then comes the grand finale and rachel ho comes in from the side with backstreet's back blasting from her stereo and i totally know WHO DID ALL THIS.there were so many ppl la.just standing arnd and laughing and saying surprise. i saw dave and was like..if rach did all this how did she get so many ppl she barely knows to come?? then the cameras are flashing and all i can do is cry in shock cos it's all so beautiful literally.exhiliratingx10000000

oh,and suddenly,ROWE's there.and im like,she din even answer my calls and said she probably cldn come.AND shan ..that faker.was asking me abt if roweee was coming and i told her,she says she'll be late.oh well.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

iv been PUNK'D.

and i had VIPs.reallllly interesting yeah.but to make it really clear,when they were like oh wait ur boyfriend is coming i was thinking of jon..josh..sam..and was quite happy that perhaps these ppl cld turn up.then dave lets the cat out of the bag by saying,oh zheng ah? cheh.

but it was nice in the end cos ding! and zheng showed up later so we cut cake and it was all so sweet and everyth that rachel stef and meng came up with this whole idea for my birthday..and it was just,awesome.

iv never felt SO loved by SO many ppl b4.

AND ROBYN KNEW! she kept telling me this morning..consolling me that OHHH...10 ppl is good.10 ppl is really good!HAH.

then we just sit arnd..OH yeah AND altho i alr knew,trinette and GANG got me a NEW BIKE.the most amazing thing EVERRRRR next to the party.if trinette hadn told me earlier that they were getting me a bike..i wld have cried even more today.but,it's REALLY SMALL and JUST FOR ME.sooooooo SWEEETTTTT I LOVE YOU GUYS.

and we have good music courtesy of rachel who said she got pissed at me for disturbing their plans..but if u ask me i think planning my own bday party kinda helped them in getting me out of the house and really distracted by the lack of guests that i din even really think much if this was all a big joke.

andddd yeah so we split into grps.the guys with soccer..trinette with sucker,liao,amanda,her bro and my bro..ZWING...to her house for dinner.steffy and jolene got to talk to the other two kenneths loe and ong,i rowe marilyn shan rach tgt AGAIN (i thot none of the get-togethers wld come la) yeah and the guys with SOCCER again..

sparkler night.meng and his flare.and whining sparklers..ah well,im just in awe of all the candles and lights and fire..

i got new earrings from caron!and iv almost finished her sweets..and zwing gave me an ugly little lamb.SO CUTE.and her mum gave me a white rose!!! so pretty.best of all tho...was GOD'S gifts to me:

JESUS so i can talk to him anytime i want

RACHEL STEF AND MENG for planning the greatest night of my life (so much better than prom..i was not even dressed up well)

THE GET-TOGETHERS the best group of ppl ever from SC whom i dun ever ever wanna forget

MY CHURCH BUDDIES the ppl i love so much and who make up the largest part of my social circle

EVERYTHING AND MORE THAT I COULD EVER WANT He answered my prayers more than 2-fold.with MORE than i myself cld even EXPECT.a beautiful night made DROP DEAD GORGEOUS.HE WORKED IT ALL RIGHT.

MY GUESTS: in alphabetical order..hope i don't leave out anyone
AMANDA..thanks for the BIKE man..im so SO touched
BRANDON..my good good good good friend who was 'supposed to have dinner somewhere tonight eh..'
CARON..you possessed woman!!! FAKE ME ONLY.
CHIN..you CAME! haha all because im ur mei u wldn mind if it was all girls(:
DAVID..HAHA! TBBITW thanks for coming!!!
DING..AHH! dingggg thanks for always being nice to me(:
(GOD ALSO WAS THERE!all the way man.)
JOLENE..babe you sly thing..keep going home to stall me eh.
KENNETH LOE..HAHA honored to be invited?
KENNETH ONG..i know you love my red bike.please take susie home.(HAH iv named the red bike susie on impulse less than 5 seconds ago)
KENNETH WONG HO MENGGGGG (SISTERS FOREVER!i cannot say enough.you skeez!!!! talk to me so much and scheme against me behind my back!!! i love you la!)
LIAO..YOU also knew!?!? ahahah and u just were thinking of coming eh.
MARILYN..thanks SO much for the cake man!!! i must go find ur present downstairs..
MARK..HELLO!!! another one part of the whole scam!!!!!never even mention to me at ALL!
rachel ho ruizhen (babe i love you so so SO much.i thank GOD for you my bestfriend!!!!)
ROWE..ur the first name in my BLACK LIST book.keep msging michelle!im jealous la.love you babe.
SHAN..number one FAKER LA.keep asking..so who's coming???? to make me sad la.
STEF (SISTERS FOREVER TOO!!! i love the slippers!!!)
SUCKER..you suck.to think you managed to conceal all that info behind all that laughing!!!!
TRINETTE..i cld never do without you helping me out allllll the time(:LOVEYACYCLINGBUDDY.
YONG EN..act stupid only when i asked u to come tonight eh.
ZHENG..HAHA my VIP who din say a word to me RIGHT.
ZWING..woman can i say more? you're my BOF forevermore.


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after reading all this,you DO realize that God was part of the whole scam too right?

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