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winter rain is bitter
winter rain is snow;but i haf no idea why i even put that title on anyway.
sth feels so wrong abt this whole arrangement.i miss mummy.i miss having parents.anyhows,it feels so hollow arnd inside me.sth's missing.i think its my parents.or is it sth else?
i feel so alone.the lonely dinner i made for myself,the emptiness and vulnerability just wondering arnd the living room waiting for my brothers to return home,the incredible pressure put on me to sustain the life and safety of this house..
i don't like being the mother of the house.the woman in charge.its so dreary.and i need to talk to someone.its just so..stifling.
its fun making food and stuff,but i kinda feel depressed now.sigh.
thats it.i feel like a baudelaire.probably violet.in real life she wld haf probably died already having to drag her two younger siblings arnd avoiding stupid count olaf.
im on book 8. :)
its so cold arnd here.bitter. :( theres a sense of unbelonging in this house.that this isn really where 3 of us sld be.i need my parents.nv missed them so much b4.can't even go to amazing race tmr.cos we need parental consent.i dun happen to haf parents to spare at the moment.
in ways words cant totally explain,i feel orphaned.
sth feels so wrong abt this whole arrangement.i miss mummy.i miss having parents.anyhows,it feels so hollow arnd inside me.sth's missing.i think its my parents.or is it sth else?
i feel so alone.the lonely dinner i made for myself,the emptiness and vulnerability just wondering arnd the living room waiting for my brothers to return home,the incredible pressure put on me to sustain the life and safety of this house..
i don't like being the mother of the house.the woman in charge.its so dreary.and i need to talk to someone.its just so..stifling.
its fun making food and stuff,but i kinda feel depressed now.sigh.
thats it.i feel like a baudelaire.probably violet.in real life she wld haf probably died already having to drag her two younger siblings arnd avoiding stupid count olaf.
im on book 8. :)
its so cold arnd here.bitter. :( theres a sense of unbelonging in this house.that this isn really where 3 of us sld be.i need my parents.nv missed them so much b4.can't even go to amazing race tmr.cos we need parental consent.i dun happen to haf parents to spare at the moment.
in ways words cant totally explain,i feel orphaned.
summer without you is as cold as winter;winter without you is even¶ 11:18 PM 0 comments
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