on my own anyhows am feeling super alone now.like,really.alone in the corner of the universe alone.abandoned and friendless alone.

so far the only one online i don't mind talking to is josh.i think there are many other ppl out there whom i usually talk to online but are not online nowadaes.thats why im feeling empty.my at home life revolves arnd the outside network connected to me.right now this network is nil.

i need a friend.i know Jesus is there.but as in,a friend to talk rubbish with the whole night through that sort of friend.

cluster was today.i met peien,ruiyi,kenneth ong.interesting mix.

there is no excitement.

im beginning to feel that no one is ever going to pay attention to me.it makes me restless.and my right hand feels like writing a story.but what the hell.my stories suck and never end.the only person who can save me from this depressing boredom is josh.but josh is talking on the phone.

i don't know but i think im depending on josh too much.he's becoming more of a bestfriend than a di.that is scary.where's my rachel hoooooo when i need her??!?!i NEED RACHEL HO BACK.i need to call her and talk rubbish until 3 a.m.i miss her like crazy la.she's gona be so pleased to read this.but.YES I MISS YOU RACHEL.so much that im beginning to mistake josh for you.like,when im so damn bored i wanna call josh up and start talking rubbish,or just run over to josh's house to disturb.but of course i never do such stupid things and in actual fact never bother josh at all.but it always crosses my mind.josh is my only di left right now.

see rach,this is what you and i call the twilight zone.  ¶ 12:51 AM 0 comments