smash was last night!!very traumatic,as esther puts it.i was so scared that sth wld go wrong with the recap.but nth did!it was perfect stuff,after all that praying and chin's support.i was soooo tired out halfway that i was feverish and had a headache..but after a great fuse-blowing worship it all went away and i lasted until 3 plus!

anyway about last nights recap.hmm.im sorry okay? im sorry for editing esmond and timmo's biscuit picture and michelle and robyn's china picture and making it look as if esmond was kissing robyn.that picture is not real.NOT REAL.and esmond already is attached to someone else,and robyn likes someone else.so its all NOT REAL.i knew that full well when i edited the picture,so im making it clear to everyone else.i wasn trying to churn up a rumour,or harm esmond OR robyn.esp robyn.robyn is my good friend and basically i wld only bother wasting my precious time editing on photoshop photos of ppl i actually LIKE.okay? if i hated you i wldn haf bothered.at ALL.esmond and robyn are good ppl,and good friends to me,regardless of whatever esmond might think.and i wasn trying to create dissension.like,since its obviously not true,take it as a joke? plus,its not half as bad cos they're both good,normal ppl.but it's NOT TRUE.NOT TRUE AT ALL.

okay im not feeling in the best of moods at all.the fact that the laptop is still missing,and ..other things.

its these times i really wanna talk to joshua again.im addicted to having him as a di.i was so tired last night cos the previous night we talked till 4 about rubbish.he's such a great person to talk to.

i really wanna talk to josh!!!!!im breaking inside.  ¶ 3:26 PM 0 comments