a bit of a love poem there were many times i thought i loved you
i loved you when i thought i loved you
and i loved you even when i was convinced i didn't

you probably thought i only loved you sometimes
when i felt like it i loved you,
but most of the time i felt nothing else

maybe i might have only loved you and you alone
then again i loved you when you lost yourself
i could have loved you even if you weren't you

if you made me cry i wouldn't love you,
i said with my fingers crossed behind my back-
you knew tears could only mean i loved you

what did you do to make me love you
i tried not to ever love you the way i loved you
but i loved you before i fell in love with you

who were you that i should have loved you
i loved everything about you
loved the things you were and things you never were

maybe then i didn't really love you
because now i don't believe i loved you
but in my dreams i always loved you

i loved you all the time, i think
i loved you when you acted like you loved me
i loved you when you couldn't say you loved me

i loved you pretending i was too short to be seen
i loved you when you bent down so i could reach you
i loved you 'cause you agreed to hug me twice

i loved you being good to make me happy
i loved you despite you being bad but never telling me
i loved you because i knew you had no choice but to lie to me

i loved you when i could tell you loved me
i loved you even if i was completely bluffing myself
i loved you through my conscious and my sub-conscious

i loved you when you didn't dare to put your arm around me
i loved you more when you squeezed nearer to me instead
i loved you eventhough i wasn't thinking about you

i loved you and those dimples on your face
i loved you allowing me to hold your hand for hours
i loved you all the years you took to grow up

but no matter how much i remember loving you
i also remember hoping to stop loving you
praying our footprints in the sand would disappear

so what if i loved you when i ran my fingers
through your short brown hair, smiling
'cause you purposely left the gel out

did it matter that you were the only one to ever
say i meant more to you than i would know
and i knew then you were telling the truth?

we could have stayed up the whole night talking
your head resting bravely against my shoulder
voice low and trusting, unafraid

and i would have loved you more than anyone
but baby you never loved me once or twice yourself
yes, i love you, i love you, i love you;

but now i loved you.

-based on a few true stories.  ¶ 11:31 PM 0 comments