born to blade;raised to FLY
20050317
cruel to the eye
living life in constant denial is never very fun.living in reality isn much fun either.
living for tomorrow's brighter day isn exactly..much fun,either.
i don't even noe wat im rambling abt anymore! im just very VERY VERY VERY VERY sian of staring at the pile of amaths worksheets and being totally unable to be ENTHUSIASTIC abt finishing it up.i love emaths so much more.and.urgh.that SS source based question.
how do i carry on like this?
im going to fail the Os or sth at this rate.
why am i so disconnected with workaholism?
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
living for tomorrow's brighter day isn exactly..much fun,either.
i don't even noe wat im rambling abt anymore! im just very VERY VERY VERY VERY sian of staring at the pile of amaths worksheets and being totally unable to be ENTHUSIASTIC abt finishing it up.i love emaths so much more.and.urgh.that SS source based question.
how do i carry on like this?
im going to fail the Os or sth at this rate.
why am i so disconnected with workaholism?
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
everywhere i go;i think of where iv been¶ 11:08 PM 0 comments
coming of age
i grew tired of reading my oldest blog halfway.tho i managed to get so much insight into wat i was like before.i had this identity crisis,and i wasn able to be honest with myself,or the blog.i cld still rmb the many things that lay unsaid as i skimmed thru pages and pages of nonsensical ramblings.im reminded of how i refused to be forthcoming. (haha,yes,like mark says i am now) i tried to carve an attitude without a proper identity.i din put the 'jonk!' into jonk.no matter how hard i tried to convince everyone,esp myself,that i was SOMEONE;i think i nv really knew who i was anyway.
i used to be so against love.right now,i think love is just some enzyme for the heart or sth.it softens ppl,it breaks ppl.i guess its nice to love ppl,cos love makes the love go round. :)
yeah so i really snubbed the idea of love,and loved to solve love problems.i guess now i noe that dave was always right.ppl like me do love,even if they say they dun.for one thing,behind all that lines of critism against love,i was in love myself.
and hating it.
in love with who? its something not even my forthcoming-ness is going to reveal.
not really love la.it was more of,admiration and looking up to that person. (eh,Rowe?)
i also see how iv grown.now,at 16,i really have changed.so many things have changed in fact.like,how i used to shy away from mentioning how i used to like ppl like jianxin and mark.but now both guys already know and im not shy abt it or anything.like,fine.it was so long ago anyway.iv got quite an odd history with jianxin too.and i consider mark a really good friend now.it overwrites a whole lot of past.
if i had known that girl jonk at that time,i wld haf a lot to teach her.im almost 3 years older than her now,like dave was then.what wld have he taught me if he chose to?
but it still stands.im his little girl on skates.'his' has no indications of 'belonging to him' but more of his 'possession of the nick name'.
goodnight everyoney. :)
i used to be so against love.right now,i think love is just some enzyme for the heart or sth.it softens ppl,it breaks ppl.i guess its nice to love ppl,cos love makes the love go round. :)
yeah so i really snubbed the idea of love,and loved to solve love problems.i guess now i noe that dave was always right.ppl like me do love,even if they say they dun.for one thing,behind all that lines of critism against love,i was in love myself.
and hating it.
in love with who? its something not even my forthcoming-ness is going to reveal.
not really love la.it was more of,admiration and looking up to that person. (eh,Rowe?)
i also see how iv grown.now,at 16,i really have changed.so many things have changed in fact.like,how i used to shy away from mentioning how i used to like ppl like jianxin and mark.but now both guys already know and im not shy abt it or anything.like,fine.it was so long ago anyway.iv got quite an odd history with jianxin too.and i consider mark a really good friend now.it overwrites a whole lot of past.
if i had known that girl jonk at that time,i wld haf a lot to teach her.im almost 3 years older than her now,like dave was then.what wld have he taught me if he chose to?
but it still stands.im his little girl on skates.'his' has no indications of 'belonging to him' but more of his 'possession of the nick name'.
goodnight everyoney. :)
¶ 12:37 AM 0 commentskeep that faith my friend. who noes wat is planned for us friends. we might
meet somewhere, one day, and mebe then we'll talk.
coming of age
i grew tired of reading my oldest blog halfway.tho i managed to get so much insight into wat i was like before.i had this identity crisis,and i wasn able to be honest with myself,or the blog.i cld still rmb the many things that lay unsaid as i skimmed thru pages and pages of nonsensical ramblings.im reminded of how i refused to
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